I am officially staring at the clock, willing 4:00pm to come faster! I left D&D (I know, I'm a nerd) last night in somewhat of a huff. I was tired and I felt a little hurt by something Ryan had said to me. Shortly after I left, I went to bed with unhappy/unsettled feelings. I remember waking up last night and, finding Ryan there, was completely confused as to who was beside me. I felt my way up his arm and touched his hair for probably a full minute, wondering who the heck is lying on top of my right arm! yikes! It was really strange. I hate being upset with him, but really, he was rude to me and that is not acceptable, not now, not ever. I fully expect him to tell me when I am treating him unkindly. You see, my boyfriend has turned me into one of those people who has to talk to their partner about what is going on rather than little stepping around the issue until both parties have forgotten what happened. Now, I like to lay down, hide under the blanker (just b/c I can share my feelings now, doesn't mean I can do it looking directly at the person) and discuss my thoughts. Although, I was surprised as I woke up when I heard him come in the bedroom door. I figured I would spend at least an hour tossing and turning as I mulled over my ill feelings. I was so tired, I fell asleep so fast I didn't have time to think about how long I had stayed up.
Anyway, we have guests in town, Ryan's parents and sister and nephew. It's going to be difficult to talk to him tonight, but I think I have to get it out. After that, it's going to be a busy few days with running errands, working out, Jack and Finn's birthday party on Sunday and just the general chaos that a 3yr old brings to a typically calm atmosphere. I love it.
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