I am seriously beginning to lose patience with the job search. I am aware that it is ridiculous to feel like there is no end in sight to this job search when I already have a job lined up for which I am supposed to start on February 19. Oh and not to mention the second interview I just had with the Dept of Uroloogy on Wednesday and the the second interview I will be going to at the Admissions office next Wednesday. Those 3 jobs are beside the point! The point is this: I am still employed at the hellhole with no definite end in sight. I don't actually want the job that I'm supposed to start on Feb 19. It's just a back up in case no other job comes through.
My patience is fading and I'm beginning to feel the desperation that comes from being thoroughly unhappy with my current position.
In other news, my relationship with my sweet sweet boyfriend continues to grow deeper in love. We've stepped into a new level of being really great friends and really great lovers. We've come through a series of very serious "discussions" about the impending future. Discussions full of tears and painful moments, always ending with a feeling of uncertainty for where our future will take us but a firm determination to be together. The fact remains that we have no idea where we will live once he graduates. Do we stay in here or move further north? Do we move to the West coast? I love our current apartment. It has plenty of space and our set up is very comfortable and functional. I'd love to paint, but the non-permanent nor even semi-permanent situation poses a problem.
It feels like Gainesville is a place of transition. I transitioned into college, transitioned out of college and into the "real world". I'm just waiting for Ryan to make his next transition and then we figure out where to go and what to do for our next transition.
Last night, as I attempted to nap on Erich's couch while the boys played RPG StarWars (read: big nerds! whom I love!) I thought to myself, "It's nice to be so in love with someone that I will follow him to a friends house and read/sleep on said friends couch just to keep myself in the same room as him. It's lovely.
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